I am curious by nature. I want to know what people are thinking, what is around the corner of a canyon wall... I want to push the boundaries of my ability and imagination.
That is why I went on this trip. I wanted to find myself. I wanted to meet me in the middle of an old European square amidst thousands of people and just get to know me. I realized this one day, as I was wondering, if there was anyone in the world, at that exact moment, thinking if there is someone like me. Someone exactly like me. And I think that it is not just a desire which I have, it is common among humans to feel the need to be connected to someone similar to yourself. But after some time, this thought began to evolve into the idea that perhaps instead of looking for a connection with someone, I should begin to first have a connection with myself. Because within my mind I am not always unified with one thought, one feeling. There are many different scattered thoughts, mixed emotions, doubts, fears... And to connect, or better, to unify these things is only something which comes after the realization and acknowledgement of each individual one. Understanding it. Allowing it develop and exist freely. Then examining the relationship or impact it has on the other thoughts and feelings. It is something that can come after a long time of complete honesty with oneself. You have to allow yourself to open up, realize those feelings, and be vulnerable with yourself. Too often we feel the need to hide within our feelings, because we do not wish to confront them, feel embarrassed by them, want to just feel positive... As society expects us to.. However it is not sustainable to practice this in the long run, because the longer that we run, the more that we hide, the more we lose ourselves in the sea of emotion. Self awareness is what makes the mind strong, resilient. It is to have discipline over your own actions, to be a master of your own mind. It can help to overcome challenges that perhaps one did not think they could overcome. And because of that I will continue to explore my mind, and challenge my ability, and urge others to do the same... Because even a small trickle of curiosity about ones own self can trigger a great flood of self discovery, understanding, and balance.
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